Losing grip. Last time I posted was a couple of weeks ago. Too many distractions and none of them worthwhile. This is the sort of time I wish I was busy rather than have all this free time.
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FIFA 12, L.A. Noire and recently, Max Payne 3 is all that occupies my time. Max Payne 3 looks awesome. Except Max Payne himself, who looks fat.
I'm worried about the impression I'm making on my new temporary roommate who only sees me either having a plate or my gamepad in my hands. I really do want to spend my time well but there is a not a lot of things an unemployed guy can do except searching for jobs. One bad thing about the Internet is that it made job search too easy - all it takes is just half hour every morning to see if any jobs matching my profile opened up. And then slowly I sink into the inconsequential and useless things that a PC and Internet offer with such ease.
But in the past few days, I've done one thing that brought back old memories and also felt like I was getting better at something real. I used to be good at drawing stuff. I even went to a drawing class to hone my skills and it did pay off; I got pretty good at freehand drawing. And then like many other classes I've gone, I've quit this class before I got significantly good at it. From then onwards it was hard to get good practice. I got caught up with public exams in school. Then, by the time I was in college I just forgot all about it...until I came across deviantART. In my opinion it is one of the best websites for artists. I used to pass time just by browsing other people's drawings and photographs. It also inspired me into making a submission for a contest in the website (it's also my only submission in that website till now). After that I've made some effort into drawing stuff, mostly superheroes, fueled by my love for comic books. Comic books convinced me that drawings need to be original. Many comic book artists made their names by having their unique style of drawing. I usually just recreate a picture I see, but now I tried drawing new things.
Then during final year, I got caught up with placements, project, GRE and everything and since then I never had a chance to draw anything except during exams and I never took the initiative to rekindle my old flame.
But recently, one of my friend's birthday was coming up and I didn't have any way to gift her anything since she lived abroad. But there was one idea...I had drawn a picture of another friend about a year ago for her birthday as well and it came out great. So when one of them suggested that I draw her as a gift for her birthday, I was like "challenge accepted".
Initially it didn't go well. I couldn't judge the amount of space I needed to draw her features and the resulting picture came skewed and didn't look like her at all. My second attempt resulted in a person looking like Adele but I knew that this was just practice. The third attempt really paid off. I used a technique my drawing teacher taught me a long time ago to get all the features in the right place. Shading took time but I was patient, careful not to ruin a good drawing. I was finished in about 4 hours. I usually wait for one day and then see the drawing again. I do this because after putting all that work my brain convinces me that I did a good job even if I did a crappy one. After one day, it goes back to normal.
So next day when I saw the drawing, it still looked good. So I headed to the library to scan it, so I can send it to my friend through email. Once I scanned it, I compared the drawing to her face and made some changes again. Now it looked really good.
I was happy with the way the drawing came out and my friend was too. I felt really good about myself. So, doing something which I love is very rewarding for me. But it is also hard to differentiate what I love when the lines are blurred. I love gaming, but so does many other people, so it is not anything special. But not many can draw, but I am at least an amateur so that is one thing unique about me.
I don't know where this might go if I try to continue to write about this. I just wanted to get out a piece of thought that was in my mind. I hope you too have something that you are good at and I hope you have not abandoned it like I have.
Ciao.
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FIFA 12, L.A. Noire and recently, Max Payne 3 is all that occupies my time. Max Payne 3 looks awesome. Except Max Payne himself, who looks fat.
I'm worried about the impression I'm making on my new temporary roommate who only sees me either having a plate or my gamepad in my hands. I really do want to spend my time well but there is a not a lot of things an unemployed guy can do except searching for jobs. One bad thing about the Internet is that it made job search too easy - all it takes is just half hour every morning to see if any jobs matching my profile opened up. And then slowly I sink into the inconsequential and useless things that a PC and Internet offer with such ease.
But in the past few days, I've done one thing that brought back old memories and also felt like I was getting better at something real. I used to be good at drawing stuff. I even went to a drawing class to hone my skills and it did pay off; I got pretty good at freehand drawing. And then like many other classes I've gone, I've quit this class before I got significantly good at it. From then onwards it was hard to get good practice. I got caught up with public exams in school. Then, by the time I was in college I just forgot all about it...until I came across deviantART. In my opinion it is one of the best websites for artists. I used to pass time just by browsing other people's drawings and photographs. It also inspired me into making a submission for a contest in the website (it's also my only submission in that website till now). After that I've made some effort into drawing stuff, mostly superheroes, fueled by my love for comic books. Comic books convinced me that drawings need to be original. Many comic book artists made their names by having their unique style of drawing. I usually just recreate a picture I see, but now I tried drawing new things.
Then during final year, I got caught up with placements, project, GRE and everything and since then I never had a chance to draw anything except during exams and I never took the initiative to rekindle my old flame.
But recently, one of my friend's birthday was coming up and I didn't have any way to gift her anything since she lived abroad. But there was one idea...I had drawn a picture of another friend about a year ago for her birthday as well and it came out great. So when one of them suggested that I draw her as a gift for her birthday, I was like "challenge accepted".
Initially it didn't go well. I couldn't judge the amount of space I needed to draw her features and the resulting picture came skewed and didn't look like her at all. My second attempt resulted in a person looking like Adele but I knew that this was just practice. The third attempt really paid off. I used a technique my drawing teacher taught me a long time ago to get all the features in the right place. Shading took time but I was patient, careful not to ruin a good drawing. I was finished in about 4 hours. I usually wait for one day and then see the drawing again. I do this because after putting all that work my brain convinces me that I did a good job even if I did a crappy one. After one day, it goes back to normal.
So next day when I saw the drawing, it still looked good. So I headed to the library to scan it, so I can send it to my friend through email. Once I scanned it, I compared the drawing to her face and made some changes again. Now it looked really good.
I was happy with the way the drawing came out and my friend was too. I felt really good about myself. So, doing something which I love is very rewarding for me. But it is also hard to differentiate what I love when the lines are blurred. I love gaming, but so does many other people, so it is not anything special. But not many can draw, but I am at least an amateur so that is one thing unique about me.
I don't know where this might go if I try to continue to write about this. I just wanted to get out a piece of thought that was in my mind. I hope you too have something that you are good at and I hope you have not abandoned it like I have.
Ciao.
Mr.Grids ;)
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